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It has come to another point in life where I start to think back and reflect on what I’ve been doing so far. I haven’t got a habit of reflecting or rather, have lost that habit of it. Laziness has got the better of me. Slacking hours in my internship isn’t doing any good to me as well. I think I got so complacent of the fast-paced Singapore that I wanted to slow down the pace on my own, a little to slow for now.
All along I’ve been wanting to do more, for the Kingdom as well as for myself. I ended up not accomplishing much of both. Unity is one value I see as one of the most important but I haven’t been very united to those around me, or put in the effort to do so.
Generally, things in my life have become rather fake. It wasn’t much of people pleasing anymore but I’ve become self-pleasing, self-centered. How can I get others to be less self-centered if I myself am not setting a good example. Its easy to fake. But spirit is caught, not taught. The spirit wasn’t in me to begin with.
I don’t know what God’s gonna do in my life, I’m so confused and directionless. I know He needs to deal with me before I can progress further, or I’ll just fall deeper into the pit.
What am I doing in life? What/who am I living for? Somehow the answers to those questions are no longer as straightforward and clear-cut as before.

Back to basic, back to my first love.
God, please guide me back to the right track. Lead me by hand back into your arms. I can’t do this alone.

Learn:
Time To Say Goodbye
La Califfa – Hayley Westenra
Scarborough Fair – Sarah Brightman

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I’m so drained physically and mentally, but charged up spiritually. These few weeks have been a period of intensive moulding and stretching, its almost too much to bear. So many responsibilities, tasks, things to be settled, its no wonder my emotions constantly tell me to give up. “If I give up now I’ll have so much more time to sleep, so much more time to enjoy and do whatever I want.” But I know I’ll never be able to bring myself to do it because a life without God, is a life rather not lived. I guess to put it simply, God has already become the most important thing in my life, my bestest friend. But on the other hand, being entrusted with more things to do is never something that I like receiving. More responsibilities means less sleep, more thinking, less time for myself, and more self managing required. I always picture myself laying on the grass in the middle of a field, and watch as the clouds drift by. Too bad life is no longer that simple. One thing God reminded me was this phrase, “when you’re faithful with little, more will be entrusted.” It motivates me
Yesterday’s sermon was really very timely for me.

Romans 8:14-17
¹⁴ For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. ¹⁵ The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.^[a] And by him we cry, “Abba,^[b] Father.” ¹⁶ The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. ¹⁷ Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

“then we are heirs – heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ” It renewed me big time. I guess I thought serving God was most important, I let my day be occupied with tasks and plans which kinda make me lose track of whats most important – my relationship with God. Thank God for helping me realign my path! It also reminded me of the heavenly inheritance waiting for me when I finally finish the race.
I am an heir of God! Work hard for God and with God now, and my reward is in heaven!

NLC was simply breathtaking! God really opened my eyes to many things and got me to see situations in His perspective. Seeing the world in His perspective reminded me of how God saw the world when He first created it, and how He saw people when He first created us^.

Jeremiah 29:11
¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

It really struck me that we were created for success, for happiness, for great purpose, for the very best, but that’s not how we’re living our lives now. We settle for the mediocre, for second best. We’re always worrying about our future. We live by the day, not knowing what we’ll do in the future. We’re always bored with life. “Life sucks!” and “FML” always cross our minds. Its so different from what God had planned for us. There’s definitely more to life besides studying, working, getting married and eventually dying. God’s passion is that we live our lives to the fullest! I’m really thankful for His love. He can choose to invest His time, His plans and His best for other things but He chose to invest it all on us.
God I want to join you in investing in Your Kingdom!

Make Your passion my passion!

The whole story’s pretty long but I’m gonna tell it anyway cause its so awesomely cool!

Dad quit his highly paid, highly recognised job in India to come to Singapore to find a job so that he can live with us.
Can’t quite remember the last time dad worked in Singapore. Think he flew overseas when I was still in primary school. I often cried whenever he came back to visit, and then had to leave again. But over the years, I got used to it though it wasn’t something good to get used to. :/
Anyway, for the first whole month since he quit his job and got back, he sent out resumes and letters to many different restaurants and hotels looking for a job, but to no avail. It was quite disappointing really, because logically speaking, many restaurants would rather hire a foreigner than a local no matter how much experience he’s got. I guess it sounds cooler saying “My chef’s from Hong Kong” than “My chef’s local”.
Long story short, my dad got a job all the way in Indonesia. Going there would have completely wasted the efforts and sacrifices he made to come back to Singapore. We prayed, really hard that dad would find a job before he goes to Indonesia.
True enough God answered our prayers – at the last week, just when my dad’s about to fly to Indonesia the following week, my dad received a call from Mark Lee asking to meet him for a job interview. My dad also received another call from Tunglok restaurant group for a job interview. For Mark Lee, he wants to invest in my dad and open a restaurant for him! HOW COULD IS THAT? Probably the only downside is that my dad has to hire managers, waiters and other chefs.
Today my dad went for the food tasting for Tunglok and he got the job as Executive Chinese chef! WHOO!!
GOD IS SO AWESOME!

He’s never late, never early, but always on time!

Finally I can spend my money on something besides food.

Gosh, it’s been such a tiring week. I must say it’s the most exhausting period of time since year 1 when I had Drawing Essentials and stayed awake for more than 48 hours.
Have been staying in school till 8+, 9 almost everyday. It would be a lot easier if I had the softwares at home in my laptop.
I.am.tired!!

But I thank God that those submissions have been piling up, I hardly feel the stress. God has been faithful in being there and also in keeping me still before Him.
And also! I’m really happy that my efforts are not in vain! At least all that staying up late, staying back after school to do projects, having time with family, friends taken away didn’t go to waste. Most of my assignments and presentations turned out well, better than expected. Really praise God for that!

Thank you God for keeping my sanity in the midst of my insane school life and also for being there!

CNY’s been great! Despite not spending much time with my beloved cousins this year, but I’ll say this year’s CNY’s been satisfying. What satisfies me most in this festive season isn’t the holidays, or the hong baos, but the food. I look forward to CNY every year for the salted duck, the soup, the sharkfin, abalone and other treats that I only get to eat during this time of year. Sadly, its over!
This year my family and I got to stay in Fullerton Hotel, just for the sake of it. I must say, its definitely one of the highlights of 2011. Fullerton Hotel FTW! That’s a rather biased statement considering that I’ve never stayed in any other hotel in Singapore, but oh wells!
Copper enjoyed his CNY as well; being the center of attention during the eve and the first day of CNY. He loved the attention,  the hugs he gets, how people applaud at his gong xi gong xi action, how they smiled and laughed at his cuteness. Copper’s a pampered puppy.

Anyway, back to reality. I’m still in the festive mood. Submissions are about due, but I’m not stressed, yet. Thank God for His control over my projects and time management these few weeks. I could have drown in my pile of work. Haha!